This calendar is fckin awesome. (Taken with instagram)

First instagram pic. Whaddup yall. (Taken with instagram)

hotblah:

What do girls HONESTLY want in a guy? S.W.A.G. She.Wants.A.Gentleman.

I buy a 128 cd case for $1 on amazon.com. when i get it, i realize i have to take out that extra plastic piece so that i can put my cd in the sleeve…FOR 128 CDS?!?!?!…no wonder it was only a dollar…smh

there’s so many things i can say about 2011 but i believe the most change has come in the last four months of this year.

prior to the fall semester starting, i started having back problems; specifically my lower back. it felt like a knot that someone just kept increasing the tension on and it was hard for me to even walk short distances without having to stop. come to find out, i had a weak core and my back was taking the majority of my weight.

during the first 1/4 - 1/3 semester, there were days i didn’t want to go to class because walking there from the parking lot was just too much. not to mention at this time, i was still smoking a pack a day, eating unhealthy, and consciously resisting change. then there were other aspects of everyday life that became hard to do such as tying my own shoe, takin a shit, and even fitting into my “big” clothes. there was incident where in one day, i sat in two chairs at two different places and they broke under me. there were also days where i would just lay down and do nothing because my back was killin me and i couldn’t do nothing else. and it was so bad, i would even have to pop a tylenol to help relieve the pain. knowing me, these things had to happen for me to make a change. once you hit rock bottom, there’s only one way to go but up.

and it was because of this, coupled in with the reality checks and information i was getting out of my nutrition and weight training classes i was taking, i finally decided that i needed to change. change just not in my mind but lifestyle:

i haven’t bought a pack of cigarettes since october…
my weight training class two times a week wasn’t enough so i signed up for 24 hour fitness again in september
i finally decided that i needed to change my eating habits…more vegetables, fish, whole grains, fiber, breakfast, and calorie counting.
started taking a calcium supplement, fish oil, and a fat burner.
i’ve not been drinking as much as i use to

i started the semester at 350 pounds.
as of today, i weigh 314. my “big” clothes are actually kinda big to me now
matter of fact, i’ve been able to wear clothes that i haven’t worn in at least 3 years.
despite all my accomplishments and hurdles i’ve overcome this year, i would have to say that this probably the one that means most to me because i feel i’ve saved my life…
it feels good to know that not only do i feel i have my life in control but i feel like my friends have gained a part of me back. i know there were a lot of people who were concerned about my weight but didn’t say anything and i thank you for allowing me to learn my own lessons. i know i’m not the most positive person in the world but i can say, from experience, that if i can make these lifestyle changes and see results from it, then ANYONE can do it.

as far as my resolutions for this year, they were:
1) move out of my parents house
2) write two songs.

i didn’t get the first one done but the second one, despite everything i’ve written this year, two songs i did get done. =)

2012, i’m looking forward to because with this momentum i’ve gained within the past 4 months, i really can not wait to see what i can do next year.

i haven’t blogged for a while. obviously. a lot has changed within the past 2 1/2 months that i never saw coming but i believe that they had to happen. here’s a little run-thru of what’s happened:

-my 26th birthday
-i started school - which includes a weight training class
-my first double feature with the amazing poet Daniella Schonberger
-gone out of town for open mics for the first time such as The Definitive Soapbox and Lionlike
-my first slam
-i did a cooking demo for the Fil-Am Festival
-i decided that twice a week weight training class wasn’t sufficient enough so i signed up for the gym again and to help pay for it, cancelled my Netflix and Xbox Live account.
-i’m in the process of quitting smoking
-i’ve changed my diet since school started.
-i hosted my first open mic!
-i’m also in the process of moving things around in my room because…change is good.

the past couple months have been so drastic and i’m sort of having a hard time trying to keep up. however i think that the changes i’m making are the right ones…i just have to keep going. so forgive me if my tumblr looks a little empty as of late but most of you guys follow me on facebook anyway so ya’ll know what goes on for the most part. there is just something a little more honest about blogging though. ‘til next time.

so i’ve finished making my chapbook. forreals this time. when i took it in on tuesday, i saw that i had to reformat the fonts and what not and it made me really angry and aggravated ‘cuz i knew how much time it took and i wasn’t looking forward to doing it over again given what i had on my plate for the rest of the week. however it was the first time putting a chapbook together and it taught me a lot ‘bout patience. how stressing out doesn’t really help. but i just wanted to get it done for my own sanity and now that it’s done, all i gotta wait to do is just print it out. which i can wait. still learning the ropes of the poetry game and i ain’t down for the count just yet!

fuckyeahmoleskines:

One of my favourite quotes.

the past week, i’ve been working on a chapbook full of my poems. yeah it’s keeping me up at night but i believe the work will all be worth it. i will be finished within the next week and will be selling them at Daniela and I’s feature. if you can’t make it to the open mic and you want one, message me.